Does anyone else struggle with anxiety or worry? I think it is part of our job description as mothers.
Keep kids alive ✓
Three square meals ✓
Realize how little control you have over your world and the people in it ✓
Worry like it might help somehow ✓
It’s no secret: I worry way too much. It’s something I’m constantly working on and trying to overcome.
A few months ago, I read or heard something that stuck with me. I don’t remember what it was exactly but I went away from it with this sentence on my heart: God Will Provide.
Of course, I believed it on paper, but was I living my life like I believed it?
Not really. It was then that I realized I needed to keep reminding myself of this simple fact. Not just in the big stuff, but in the little stuff too.
When I’m running late: God will provide.
When my family is sick: God will provide.
When we’re looking over the budget: God will provide.
When my friend gets bad news: God will provide.
When the to-do list is impossibly long: God will provide.
When the weather report isn’t looking good: God will provide.
Choosing the right homeschool curriculum and co-ops: God will provide.
When I’m thinking about the future: God will provide.
When I’m stepping out of my comfort zone: God will provide.
I’ve been saying this sentence to myself for a few months, in all sorts of situations, and I can honestly say there is power in it. It immediately brings peace to my heart. It’s a great reminder that I am small, but He is big. I have so little control, but He is sovereign and has total control. I’m trusting and waiting on Him.
I have to laugh at the timing of this blog post. I started writing it earlier this week, before I knew there was a blizzard coming to my area. When I started to hear the reports and all the different adjectives (historic, epic, devastating, catastrophic) used to describe the storm, I’m going to admit, it was not bringing peace to my heart. As a California girl, I have a love-fear relationship with snowstorms. Would we have enough food? Would we lose our electricity? Would there be a medical emergency? I tried to catch myself before my mind went into overdrive. I kept repeating the phrase “God will provide.” I believed it, but I needed to BELIEVE it. (I believe, help my unbelief.)
Right before the storm started, I was looking out my window at the birds in the trees beyond our backyard. There were five beautiful blue jays and a bright cardinal gathering the last of the pumpkin we had tossed out for them. Just the sight of them seemed to be a good omen from God. As I stood there and watch them, I was reminded of this Bible passage:
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?”
Matthew 6:26-27 (NIV)
It also reminded me of one of my favorite songs, “Sparrow.” I’ve been keeping that song in my heart as I hear the wind howl and watch the snow pile up.
God Will Provide.